Word of the day:
BEATIFIC
Adj.: Giving joy; exaltedly happy, blissful; blessing or making exceedingly happy.
I just sat down to write an entry and realized that most of what I wanted to say I already said, over a week ago. That might actually mean something... I keep bouncing back and forth between wanting to change everything (where I'm living, what I'm doing, etc.) and wanting to just shut out these feelings and pass them off as restlessness. I don't think that's what they are.
Please God, help me. Guide me. I'm leaving it up to You, because I can't do it on my own.
--Edit: In my post-publishing reread, I noticed that I didn't really connect my word of the day to the entry... It could be self-explanatory (that I want a beatific job, or something) but I don't think it is. My life has been and continues to be incredibly blessed. I know that these issues I'm struggling through right now are so much easier than many people's, especially in this hard time. Plus, having a steady, fulfilling job would mean nothing to me if I didn't have the good family and friends that I do. I felt I needed to clarify that, but I probably didn't.
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Hey! Don't doubt yourself. Spend some time creating a space in which you find peace, and think, feel out what you want. Maybe you feel restless because you are avoiding something...I could be totally off base but usually when I feel restless and want to get out, change everything, its because I am avoiding dealing with something or letting myself feel what I really want.
What do you want to get away from, and what do you want to go to?
Hope you are having a happy holiday season and wishing you the most merry of Christmases!
Jackie
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